Reclaiming Our Children: A Blog About Healing After Abortion

It is the point of healing. The joining of ultimate pain with ultimate love.  An act of complete trust and surrender, a
climbing on the cross with Christ there to join mercy with faithfulness.

I can remember the struggles of faithfulness, the
searching in the dark to find God, the holding on to His Word because I had
tried everything else and I longed to be healed.  The movement in spite of the pain, the
darkness, the fear, because there was nothing to loose…there could be no
greater hell than the one I had made for myself.

 I begged and pleaded with God reminding Him of His
promises, in spite of me. I worked at chipping my remains away, fighting myself
so I could reach a complete surrender.

 There were many times when I needed encouragement
to continue, my temptations and bouts with despair. Times when I felt I
couldn’t go on, but God provided the people necessary to give me the push that
I needed, the words I had to hear, the strength to hang on.

 I continually pleaded for the saint’s intercession
and especially entrusted myself to Mary and Joseph.

 And finally, one day alone with Jesus, because He
is the only one who can heal, I trusted enough to climb on the cross, to be one
with the pain and love that exists there and to allow that love to fill the
deep wounds that I had.

 There, His mercy met my faithfulness and I finally
felt healed of my abortion. I suddenly understood so much of scripture. So much
of it was then fulfilled in me, such a gift given. I felt like Mary Magdalene
at the foot of the cross. Immense love had taken on immense sin and had washed
away its stains.

 To be sure, the process of healing from abortion is
painful and delicate, but with the right help and trust in God even if not
“felt”, it is possible. Jesus in His mercy longs to heal us…we in our
faithfulness need to persevere.

Theresa Bonopartis