Reclaiming Our Children: A Blog About Healing After Abortion

So, today was the date of my wedding anniversary.

For those of you who do not know my story, my marriage did not last very long. Because of the low self esteem I suffered as a result of my abortion as a teen, I married, as I say, what I thought I deserved, and that was not anything good.

My husband, Ilias, was an alcoholic and drug abuser who unfortunately never did get it together.

I ended my marriage after 7 years with two beautiful sons. They were 2 and 4 when I walked out in circumstances much like those I had when I was kicked out of my house because I was pregnant,"no job, no money and no place to go". This time I had my children and by the grace of God our lives came together no matter how hard it was at times, HIs grace sustained me.

Ilias was never really part of their lives. He would call every once in a while but as the years went by the chances of a relationship dimished more and more.

Ilias faltered through life. He was never able to stay straight and from what I have heard had some pretty terrible experiences…the ones that often come from substance abuse.He never knew his sons or had the joy of seeing them grow into the wonderful men they are. I always told them he was sick…what else would keep a dad from his kids?

He died a couple of years ago much as he had lived, alone and as a result of drugs prescribed by a doctor. We learned about it through a mutual acquaintance. Very sad…

I pray he turned his heart to God in his last moments..I know he lived in his own hell, but I also know God is merciful and even in our last moments He will embrace us.

Please say a prayer for his soul today…