Reclaiming Our Children: A Blog About Healing After Abortion

Please pray for this woman…many of us who have suffered from a past abortion can certainly relate to her thoughts and feelings…

I’m not the type to hurt myself, but i’m feeling bizarrely suicidal.
This morning i had a dream that the guy was going to meet someone and
he was going to marry her. i woke. second dream was about the baby. i’m
feeling raw and scattered, all i’ve done all day is cry. Trying my best
not to get in anyone’s way, i can’t even bring myself to eat coz i feel
irrational bouts of : i’m not eating for the baby, or i should just
starve to death. My body is still rejecting tea, coffee, and most forms
of caffeine.

The guy and i have tiffs and misunderstandings about god knows what,
its just a blurr in my mind. i don’t rem half of everything. Every day
feels like a blurr, i’m trying to find coping mechanisms that are
constructive. but i’m so so so tired. i’m tired coz i haven’t eaten, i
haven’t eaten coz i’m irrational… see how that works? yeah!

read the rest here: http://shairascribes.wordpress.com/2010/02/10/45-days-later-feeling-suicidal/