Reclaiming Our Children: A Blog About Healing After Abortion

Found this online at a site "Any Regrets After Abortion?" http://www.steadyhealth.com/Any_regrets_after_abortion__lp838118.html….praying for her. She did not leave a name.

I don’t know how to tell you this but I wanted you so bad.
I love your father very much and wished he loved me back.
It’s not the right time.
It’s never going to be the right time!
You are never going to be ready for a child!
You don’t deserve what is going to happen to you at all.
I am so sorry for having to do this to you.
Please sleep with the angels and know that I care so much for you.
It’s going to take me a long time to stop thinking about you which is fine.
In no way, shape or form will I ever let this happen again.
The only reason I choose to go along is to get this man out of my life.
I don’t want him to resent you.
I’m afraid if I let you grow he’ll treat you wrong.
I love you with all my heart and vow to make a difference.
Your brother doesn’t know and probably never will.
I will never let this happen again.
Please understand I don’t want anyone to hurt you especially your dad.
You never really know a person until they are put in a crisis position.
You did help me baby, find out for real the real man that he is.
A man is supposed to embrace new life and be excited, scared, and grow into together.
Your dad is never going to be able to do that.
He’s weak, selfish, and inconsiderate.
He deserves all the failures he’s endured in his life.
I do not condone his lifestyle choices and I can’t believe I even had to do this.
I promise I will never do this again.
With all my heart I know that this is the biggest mistake I will ever endure.
I promise you all my life will never be the same.
I hope you do not hate me.
I don’t blame you at all.
I’m so stupid for being with a boy who doesn’t care about nobody but himself.
I would never do this before but I’m weak and I know it.
I strive so hard to do the right things and look at what I’m about to do to you.
I’m weak, hypocrite, and don’t deserve any good things anymore.
I don’t blame you at all.
I wanted you so bad and look at what I’m doing.
There is no words to make it right, nor actions.
All I know is that you deserve much better.
Please forgive me.