Reclaiming Our Children: A Blog About Healing After Abortion

Preparing for our Advent Retreat this Saturday so not much time to post, but I am reposting a post abortion reflection from a couple of years ago….pray for us Saturday!(Will be posting this years theme/pix after the retreat)

 The Birth of MERCY

 “How great is the Mercy of God contained in the Mystery of the Incarnation of the Son of God!” St Faustina

 What humility…that is my first thought when I think of God coming to earth in the form of man for my salvation.  Humility…something we all struggle with greatly. Something many confuse with shame and beating yourself up, but, they are very much at different ends of the spectrum. Shame affronts my false pride, is about me and my disbelief that I could commit such a sin. Shame causes me to hide from God. Humility stands in truth about myself and my sinfulness, and is about Him and what He has done for me by dying on the cross. It causes me to proclaim God’s Mercy.

 There was a time when the thought of the birth of Christ brought me nothing but shame, pain and sorrow. Christmas can be a very tough time of year for those who have had an abortion experience. It screams of abortion connectors:

• Mary saying “yes” to God when you did not
• the birth of a baby when you participated in the death of yours
• family
• buying toys for children

  It can be unbearable, all that “good tidings and cheer” when you feel anything but cheerful.

 For years I was miserable at Christmas although I must admit I had no idea it had anything to do with my abortion. There was no room in my heart for God and I would become locked in to depression and sadness and not knowing why I couldn’t be joyful like everyone else. It took a long time before I recognized it was because a part of my family was not there, the son I had aborted. I had said “no” to God and there was a child missing that I would never buy toys for.

 I was centered on the ”me” of Christmas instead of the “Him”.

 The Mystery of the Incarnation…God chose to come to earth as an infant and to take our sins upon Himself so that we may be saved. Mercy Himself was born to us this day, setting the stage for the crucifixion and resurrection which would open the gates of heaven to repentant sinners.

  “Joy to the world, the Lord is come! …Let every heart prepare Him room,” by focusing on the Him, not the “me” of Christmas, for Mercy is born!