Reclaiming Our Children: A Blog About Healing After Abortion

Charnette Messé witness in Luminas Spring 2005 newsletter: 

 I was 20 years old when I made the choice to have an abortion.  I was naive.  I believed what the counselor at the abortion facility told me that my baby was just a cluster of cells, tissue and could not feel pain.  Today, over a decade later I know the real truth.  I learned the truth about abortion when my husband a family practice physician who believes in his oath to do no harm showed me a photograph of an aborted baby.  I was horrified. I couldn’t stand myself knowing what I had done.  The baby in the photographs tortured body lay on top of a garbage bag behind the abortion facility. Although the photograph changed my heart and mind about abortion I was not strong enough to share with my husband that I was responsible for the death of my own child.  I continued to live silently suffering in my own physical and emotional pain. I found the courage to break my silence on the day I was diagnosed with advanced stage breast cancer. I was 31 years old and told I would not see my then 3-year-old daughter grow up.

 The day after my diagnosis was confirmed I learned I was pregnant. I fell to my knees several times begging God to give me the strength to tell my husband the truth about my baby I lost to abortion so I could tell the world.  I wanted so much to make sure what happened to me would not happen to another Mother. I believe my abortion and use of contraceptives increased my risk for breast cancer.  My husband placed his arm around me and even though he was not the father of my baby said, ”we both lost a child. “ With those words I was able to fight my cancer and love my baby in heaven, the child in my womb and the princess by my side.  I also found healing by going through PACE post abortion counseling and education at our local pregnancy center while going through chemotherapy.  My son Christian is now 2 years old, healthy and a beautiful baby boy.  My daughter Gabrielle is now six years old.  I have given my child in heaven the name Sarah Eve Messe.

 My abortion made me feel like a criminal and a slave.  My diagnosis of breast cancer and the Amazing Grace of God took the shackles off my wrists.  I found freedom and healing in telling the truth.  Abortion is not a choice, it is a crime and I want the world to hear my voice.  I invite everyone to share in my story A Brilliant Performance: A Mother’s Battle with Breast Cancer and Pregnancy Defined her Dignity in the World. My book will be released Mother’s Day 2005.  Published by Moms in Print. For more information please go to www.charnettemesse.com and to pre-order your copy today www.momsinprint.com. God Bless you and may we all live to see the day every child will be embraced in the womb.