Reclaiming Our Children: A Blog About Healing After Abortion

Gospel
Lk 18:9-14

Jesus addressed this parable
to those who were convinced of their own righteousness
and despised everyone else.
"Two people went up to the temple area to pray;
one was a Pharisee and the other was a tax collector.
The Pharisee took up his position and spoke this prayer to himself,
'O God, I thank you that I am not like the rest of humanity
greedy, dishonest, adulterous or even like this tax collector.
I fast twice a week,
and I pay tithes on my whole income.'
But the tax collector stood off at a distance
and would not even raise his eyes to heaven
but beat his breast and prayed,
'O God, be merciful to me a sinner.'
I tell you, the latter went home justified, not the former;
for everyone who exalts himself will be humbled,
and the one who humbles himself will be exalted."

There are some ways in which I can see how my abortion has be used in a good way. Probably most evident is my knowledge that I am a sinner. There is no denying that and no way to get around it. It is there each day..the fact that I killed my unborn child.

I don’t  find myself saying anymore “How could this person have done this or that ?” I truly understand how someone can get caught up in something and sin, no matter how horrible the sin…and for this I am grateful.

This of course, does not mean I am glad I had an abortion…of course not, but it does mean I am aware of my sinfulness and how much I need God’s mercy in my life. It means that I know if I stray from His teachings it will not be long before I am out there doing things I use to do and hurting myself and others gravely.

For me, it is a relief to know myself…that was not always so. There was a time in life that it terrified me to see my sins…I am not saying I enjoy seeing my faults, of which I still have many, but when I do I throw myself on God’s mercy trusting in Him instead o f myself.  I know he will not let me down as I have myself, and it is in this that I find my peace….