Reclaiming Our Children: A Blog About Healing After Abortion

Had to post this poem today since I am positive I became pregnant on the 4th of July…I remember the night well even though it was decades ago…to Joshua…wrote this in 1986…

TO JOSHUA                                                                                                 6/86

To you my unborn child, my son                                                                                                       

So much I need to say

To let you know where I was at

On that your dying day

I was so full of fear myself

Incapable to see

That giving life to you my son

Was my responsibility.

A child myself, I did not know

 the options that I had

So I made the choice to let you die

Although my heart was sad.

My parents had forsaken me

Disowned me as their own

I could not handle another way

For I was all alone.

The nightmare of that day, my son

It lingers deep inside

For along with you, my precious child

A part of me has died.

Though many years have since passed

And others I have raised

I never have forgotten you

You’re with my all my days.

You’re the child that I never held

Who never got to live

Who never got to feel inside the love I have to give.

The brother my children will never know

The grandson my parents lost

Unwed mother that I was

And you, you paid the cost.

People say that you’ll forget

That time will heal the ache

But I carry the cross of you my son

The child I did forsake.

And on my day of judgment

This cross I’ll bring to Him

Knowing in His mercy

He forgives me for my sin.

For now within my heart and soul

There always is regret

For killing you, my unborn son

God’s child I never met