Reclaiming Our Children: A Blog About Healing After Abortion

Choosing “Mercy” when Darkness Calls

 “This current email from you was particularly stirring, as I have been
more than troubled to follow the Gosnell trial, and now the verdict comes
today. The stories of his practice and clinic have been bone chilling in the
details these past weeks, and I could not breathe to read them.  This
morning it appeared the jury was hung, but thankfully the judge sent them back,
and thankfully they returned a verdict for the lives of those lost little
ones..  My own abortion haunts me yet, but in those moments of sadness, I
have most often found a way to let myself be carried to deep reflection and
remember your ever constant reminders of mercy.  Almost every time I have heard you, or read
anything you write, you are so clear about mercy.  Thus, despite time
limitations and life stresses, my healing continues, and most times now I
choose mercy when darkness calls. “ Mary Ellen Hancock

Being post abortive we have
all heard the call of darkness. In
fact, we have often sat in it for years before finding the help we needed to
heal from our abortions. We have all also heard the echoings of the voice of
darkness…. “You can never be forgiven for what you have done”, “You are a
murderer and you deserve hell.”, “There is no mercy for you, that is just what
they are saying”.  I could go on and on.

 Even after healing the
“darkness” will try to get us. “Look they do not really care”; “No one can love
you after what you have done, even God”; “This won’t last, wait until he finds
out what you did.”; “You do not deserve happiness”.  It can be unrelentless and exhausting to ward
off the voices of despair as we try to cling to the hope we have been given
through Jesus Christ.

 So, what do we do when we
experience this “darkness” this echoing?

•  We can refuse to listen. I know it is easier said
  than done but we can confirm ourselves in truth
  and tell the voices just that, their message is not the truth. God is mercy and yes, we are forgiven.

•  We can reach out to our support systems in post
  abortion healing who can help us to work through the feelings, understand
  how they are probably connectors for us, and identify them so that they
  loose power.

•  We can accept the fact that they are happening
  and chose not to fight them but wait them out. Perhaps get busy doing
  other things so we do not dwell on them but instead do good someplace
  else.

•  Most importantly we can spend time in prayer
  reflecting on the One who is truth
  and mercy Himself, knowing  He is
  there with us in spite of what we are feeling or hearing in our head.

 We can “choose mercy” because
:

• mercy is real,
• mercy is giving,
• mercy is peaceful,
• mercy is comforting,
• mercy is healing,
• mercy is loving,
• mercy is patient
• mercy is humble
• mercy is truth
• mercy is Jesus Christ, who died for our sins so
  we may have life, even our sin of abortion.

 All praise and honor and
glory to Him!