Reclaiming Our Children: A Blog About Healing After Abortion

"I have not come to call the righteous but sinners to repentance."

I get it. The Christmas season can be really tough for those of us who have had abortions. For years I walked around in a daze, full of anxiety and depression whenever the Christmas season approached.

Instead of feeling joy, many a Christmas Eve was spent in tears as I put presents under the tree for my living children. I couldn’t quite grasp it, but I knew something was terribly wrong. I just did not fit in to this jolly, "ho, ho, ho," season and I felt anything but peace.

Of course, at the time, I did not know why I felt the way I did, but through healing it came to make a lot of sense. First of all, my abortion happened around this time of year, so that alone was a major connector for me. Then, put on top of that all the usual abortion connectors…Mary’s “yes”, my “no”; focusing on the birth of Christ, the missing child I was not buying toys for, the feeling of being unforgivable (how can I celebrate a birth I thought was there to condemn me?) and on and on and on. Everything screamed to my subconscious what I had done in aborting my son. Everything screamed of eternal damnation. It was not an easy time to make it through.

Now, as I receive calls and emails from those struggling through this time of year, I would like to tell them this is a time of great hope! Mercy Himself is born to us and His name is Jesus Christ.

I know you may not be able to feel Him, and all may seem dark and gloomy. I know the voices you may be hearing may tempt you to despair and fill your head with all kinds of reasons to doubt and fear, but in the midst of those temptations, He is there, not looking to condemn you, but longing to give you comfort.

Gaze at Him. In the humility of a baby He comes to us. Non-threatening, non-judgmental, in His poverty. He comes so that we may have eternal life and have it to the fullest. He comes so that we can live with our children for eternity in heaven.

So, when you are tempted to despair, rest in Him. Answer His call with faith, even if you cannot feel it. Proclaim His victory over sin and death and thank Him for coming to earth to call your name to free you from the sin of abortion. In time, you will find that instead of anguish and despair - this Holy Season will fill you with joy because you will come to know what He has done for you.  I know this true, because he did it for me. 

 Do you hear Him? He is calling your name.

 TB

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