Reclaiming Our Children: A Blog About Healing After Abortion

We’d all like to think we are not like Thomas. That we trust in God completely without having to see a thing, but I know better.

Unfortunately, I allow myself to get pushed into the waves and though I trust somewhat, I most often do not trust completely. There is always that bit of doubt that keeps calling out to me in the back of my brain.

I remember years ago reading something St Therese said to another sister about the host “what of we have been fooled and the Eucharist is not the body of Christ”. It made me feel better that even this holy saint whose entire life was spent on the love of Christ was sometimes plagued with doubts. We all want to know and see for sure although we are willing to take the chance and will to believe even when plagued by doubt.

When people come to the ministry and hear a testimony of healing, we often hear, “I want what he/she has in healing.” They can sense the confidence o f the person giving testimony of the faith that they have in God and the knowing that they are healed.

It is often those who have gone before us that give us the courage to step out into that sea of doubt. That calling back to us that says “It is ok, He really is there waiting to heal you.”

Thomas needed to see and feel Christ’s wounds himself. He was, for whatever reason, unable to trust in the words of his fellow disciples. However, through his own personal experience, once he believed, it was his words that converted countless souls and became our confident response at mass, “my Lord, and my God” .

His personal encounter with Christ gave him the courage and strength to go out among the people preaching the gospel in foreign lands. He is said to have died shedding his blood for Christ.

May we each in our healing journey’s become courageous in proclaiming our healing in the way God asks each of us, whether it is publically or in the privacy of a conversation with another who mourns. May our doubt turn into total confidence as we journey to heaven to be with Christ and our children.