Reclaiming Our Children: A Blog About Healing After Abortion

Decided to repost this from last January in this the new year…a reminder probably more for me than anyone.

It is so easy to get pulled into the business of the pro life movement. Especially because in our culture there is so much craziness going on out there.

While we are called to action in the way God asks of each of us, in recent years, for me it has become even more "outside" because of the pressures of social media.

While I can understand the benefits of reaching more people etc. so more can be helped, I also see it as a distraction and a real danger to what it is God is calling me to do. A possibility that I can think it is what I do, instead of the truth, what He does.

I find I must stop and pray before I act on my impulse to respond to things to be sure it is Him and not me asking me to respond.

Instead of the quiet of His presence, where true healing is found, I can get pulled into the whirlwind of response. It seems there is almost a competition for attention and money, keeping up with the Jones', and sadly, that ministries can become more important than the reason they were begun.

So, when I feel hurried, or distracted, or too much demand from "out there", I remind myself of this quote from the beautiful Eucharistic meditation book, "Amazing Nearness" by Tadeusz Dajczer.

  "St Augustine’s purification was severe. Hippo, into which he had put so much loving effort, had collapsed. What had taken years to build was destroyed…such was the fate of one of the greatest saints and church fathers". (pg37) "Humanly speaking, everything was destroyed. Yet, God never looses; maybe the destruction of Hippo was necessary so St Augustine would find deeper union with God. Christ did not shed His Precious Blood for Hippo, He did it for His beloved Augustine."

I pray I always remember the true meaning for it all, union with God who died for my sins. Who does not want my good works, but wants me. Who purifies me sometimes very painfully, because I begin to stray without even knowing it. Who desires me to belong totally to Him and never lose sight of why I began doing this work, to bring others to Him through  His mercy and love.

"Lord, may I each day, keep my eyes on You no matter what others ask of me. May I prayerfully consider each thing I do making sure it is not my will or another's but Yours. I thank you for the grace of my healing and my experience of you that night long ago, which sustains me and gives the courage to continue.  Jesus, I trust in You!"  Amen