Reclaiming Our Children: A Blog About Healing After Abortion

"There have been times that I wish it had been me and that you could have lived.

I have felt like it was my fault; if she had not had me perhaps you would have had a chance. But, I try to focus on eternity."

Dear Small One,

 

God knit you together in our Mother’s womb in a way that was so perfect and so divine. I wish that I would have had a chance to know you, to love you.

 

Would you have been my Sister who I could whisper all of my secrets to?

 

Would you have been my brother, bold and protective?

 

Would you have red hair and freckles like me?

 

I miss all of the fun that we could have had together.

I am sure that we could have spent many hours playing make believe and learning to ride bikes together.

 

I am sure that I would have never been quite so afraid during thunderstorms.

You would have been younger than me, there are so many things that I could have taught you.

 

Where would we be today, as adults, would we be raising our children together?

 

I pray for you often. I cry sometimes too, when I think of everything that you could have been.

 

What would it have been like to not grow up so utterly alone?

 

I pray that in some small way you were able to exercise your free will to love God.

 

Perhaps you heard our Grandmother speak of his love.

 

I hope that your death was not too painful.

 

I wish I could have protected you from that.

 

There have been times that I wish it had been me and that you could have lived.

 

I have felt like it was my fault; if she had not had me perhaps you would have had a chance. But, I try to focus on eternity.

 

Someday we will frolic together in the glory of heaven, I am sure of it.

 

We will have to make up for lost time.

 

Forgive our Mother, it has taken me some time too.

 

As for me, I will not rest on this Earth until I see an end to this murderous nonsense that stole you away from me before I even got to hold your hand.

 

I love you small one and I will see you soon.

 

Love, Your Big Sister

 

Jeremiah 1:4-5 Now the word of the LORD came to me, saying, “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.”

Next "Entering Canaan Day of Prayer & Healing for Siblings" April 6th, 2016.  Sibling weekend dates TBA.  Stay tuned to our blog for updated information.