I can be good at running. Oh, not physically, but emotionally. Most times I am not even aware I’m doing it, after all, I spend time in adoration each day, pray, go to mass and speak to Jesus and Mary all the time, but the truth is, I can speak the words, be there physically but be like a little kid- drop the bomb and emotionally bolt!
It can be hard to sit in pain, to make yourself totally vulnerable to God and of course to truly look at yourself in truth. To find the truthof who you are in your brokenness, in your humanity.
It can still be hard at times to think that They love me despite my mess. To become aware of all the ways my brokenness keeps me from Them. It admit life is a constant battle against the consequences of sin that cause me to react in certain ways to certain things in life.
Yep, I can be really good at running.
I am trying to be more conscience of this tendency, to force myself to sit in the pain with Jesus and Mary . To stay still, to bring them into the wound even if I go not know what is is causing It and trust that it is going to work out. To offer the pain and suffering for those still far away because of the sin of abortion. To join them in the work of salvation instead of bolting.
By Their grace I am learning…
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